Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Self Reflection

1. How did I feel during planning this presentation? Why did I feel this way?
a. Anxious. I wasn’t sure how this project was going to come together, and I felt that there was an extra need for me to step up to the plate.
2. How did I feel prior to presenting? Why did I feel this way?
a. Confident. I had practiced a lot, and had spent a heaping amount of time on my slides, making sure that they were timed right, and that my slides all looked good.
b. Nervous. I didn’t truly think my group had any chance of winning the debate because we were not only up against a very good group, but also because I was unsure of the amount of time some of group members had spent on their presentations, and was really hoping that somehow we might be able to pull this together.
3. How did I feel while I was presenting? Why did I feel this way?
a. Disappointed. After my 4+ hours of working on my slides and presentation, it was crashing and burning. The first thing that went was my confidence, and I struggled aimlessly to regain my composure and get back on track. Unfortunately, it was to no avail.
4. What did I personally do well?
a. Comprehension. I was able to gather most of the information we read into my memory, and was able to remember most of the major points all the way through the presentations. The points pertaining to my group were the points that I knew all the nooks and crannies of all the points made by us, and countered by our opponents.
5. What did not go as desired in this presentation?
a. Most everything. This was easily my all time low presentation as far back as I can remember, and in those, some done without planning and practice (none in the DLC). It was literally my worst nightmare, as my keynote got way ahead of me, and I couldn’t keep up.
6. On a scale from 1-10, how well do I think I understood the content? Explain.
a. I think that I did an excellent job of comprehending the content both from the PVOnline, and the sites that were linked from it. Despite the fact I did very little research on top of the PVOnline in areas that weren’t corresponding to my group’s area of study, I still knew what opponents group was talking about the whole time and was able to answer the 8th graders clarifying questions.
7. How do I think my group members perceived me? Why do I think this?
a. Bossy/Control Freak. I think that other people in my group perceive me as being either bossy or a control freak because my style of leading relies heavily upon being in the control of the situation. I think this because not only have people pointed this out to me, but I also notice that I am pertaining to these traits.
8. How do I think the 8th graders perceived me? Why do I think this?
a. I think that they were being far too lenient with me, primarily because of the fact that we were at the same school for a two-year period, as well as the fact that during that time period we would sometimes work together as a group.
9. Knowing that I can only control how I act and react, if I could do this presentation again, what would I change about my actions to make it a more ideal experience?
a. If possible the main thing I would change would be the way my slides were set up. I thought at the time that it would a good idea to be able to walk around the room as it went in the background.
b. I would also spend less time on my slides, and more time preparing to own at the presentation, even though I had already spent a good chunk of time in this area.
10. What are my strengths in groups?
a. Leadership. I think that even though sometimes I show an unlikable part of being a leader, I have quite a bit of experience in the area, and am often able to get my group to bear down and focus on getting the job done.
b. Hard Working. I always give it my all when I’m in my group, and work hard not only for myself, but also because I don’t want to let my group members down.
11. What areas do I need improvement?
a. Patience. I will often not be patient with my group members, and expect them to work at my pace, not my own. I will often not give people the ability to do what they need to do to produce the best work they can.
b. I need to improve at being able to relax and let the other people in my group do their work instead of stressing about whether they have completed this or that and trying frantically to make everything go the way I envision it going.
12. What is the most important thing I learned about myself? Why is this so important?
a. That I need to calm down and let people work the way they choose to work, in stead of worrying about it.
13. Are there any other things that I need to express?
No.

3 comments:

  1. Jake, I'm sorry the PM eighth graders were not giving you constructive criticism or at least helpful feedback. After reading your reflection, I do not think you are bossy or a control freak, but instead a strong leader who has high standards. I agree with you about working on patience. Patience in a group project can really affect how some people work or deal with their stress. - Keara

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  2. Wow. You are definitely thorough (which is awesome!). I agree that you did lose your composure, which is very unlike you, and that many of my fellow eigth graders were too leniant, giving compliants because they liked you as a person. I'm glad that you picked up on it instead of buying into it and are able to recognize your faults. I'm also a very strong leader in a group and do tend to come across as bossy or overbearing, and I always want things to turn out the way that I plan. You're not alone there. :)

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  3. **I meant compliments, not compliants...Not sure where my brain was there.

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